Deepest, Darkest FFXI Confessions, Let's Go!

Ok, ok, gonna share one of my deepest and darkest secret related to FFXI

Few years after I had started playing it, i was maybe at the peak of my addiction.

I still feel like im a person that struggles to control my addiction, but at that time, it was too close to being insane.

Well, one day the power went off in my street. Without any signs of recovering.

I had planned to farm some abyssea seals with friends, and then i found myself unable to play.

The urge to play was so intense, that i just grabbed my backpack, tossed my notebook there, and went out to find a hotel to play.

The closest one with lights on was a love hotel relatively close to my house. I just entered there and rented for a night a room. Getting there, i setup my notebook, connected to love hotel internet and just played for a couple of hours till me and my friends got enough to upgrade our gears.

I suppose before going to sleep, i checked out the TV with the “hot” channels unlocked, so i decided to “make the most” of my stay.

The next day i left early back home. The receptionist asked me to stay a little longer, but i just wanted to play at home, at that point.

Not sure if this is scary lvls of high IQ or just street smarts.

He meticulously developed it somewhere between licking his ***'n nuts and eating his barf.

I don't know if it looks quite the same on other races, but I know on tarutaru you can get an "is that guy wearing any pants at all" effect with subligar and the malboro cafe apron. Just putting that out there.

Try that on FF14.

I viewed the bonecraft guild sign as a bunny for way too long befor I realised what it realy resembles.

Setting off fireworks in Al Zahbi on September 11th in a Walahra Turban.

Dragging a Tonberry NM from the Temple zone through to the low level exp camps in Yhoator Jungle.

Probably 7 or 8 years back, after original leaders started spending less time in game, I ended up taking over leading a few events for an LS I was in at the time. That morphed into handling things like recruitment/schedules etc, the things other sacks didn't really want to do. A few years in, someone was brought into the group who was incredibly disruptive to a lot of the older players. I had seen it also, and spoke privately to them about things. Unfortunately, one of the other sacks was too blinded by this person's *** to allow them to see the issues being caused. This ended up causing a split in the group.

Majority of people came with myself to a new shell, but the other sacks grouped together to just lowman static, as was becoming the style. One in particular had been pretty two-faced over the entire thing.

I caught a couple of them doing Nyzul around 2021. I was aware they were using Tako to get around. So I guess the confession is that I reported all to the STF. Within a week, one of their more flexible people was permabanned, and most of the others got temp bans. The woman at the centre of the original drama abandoned them when they could no longer get what they needed.

So you got them banned because they went off to play with themselves peacefully and no longer be disruptive to your group?

Hmm

Guy has been doing it for years. Tried breaking up the LS I was co-leading by spreading all kinds of crappy messages to get our members to leave, but after talking privately, many of us saw through the BS and kicked him out.

I believe the trigger was over a case where I pointed out someone making a mistake during a run in LS chat, which wasn't me purposely trying to embarrass them, but simply trying to make the group understand how we wiped so harshly. I asked the person afterwards if they were Ok, and they were totally cool with it. They messed up in a big way and had no issue with my mention.

Drama follows the guy everywhere. Check out the comments on his profile. You could do a whole thread of confessions on him, but he would probably enjoy all the attention. I have happily lead linkshells for many years since that incident with minimal drama.

I merely commented because it seemed really petty and immature to go and rat out people who are doing their own thing and not affecting you. Left a bad taste in my mouth, though I dont know the specifics of his LS drama nor do I know the guy or his server... its just, even if you don't part ways amicably, its easy enough to Blist and move on.

It gives off real Karen behavior.... like when I see a car driving 90 on the highway I dont get their plates and call the cops on them. Let people go about this old *** game the way they want to, and if SE wants to do something about them they will, rather than being SE's lapdog.

Everyone has their own line in the sand as far as what quality of life / tools / etc. they use at their comfort level. I grant that this isnt the wild west, and there is a point too far where it impacts other players, but I find it pretty immoral to be the person passing judgment on the other. I'd say the majority of people in this community at bare minimum use something, windower at least... so who would you be to assert moral superiority.

We're a dwindling community of players, majority of which play for nostalgia. Live and let live, if you don't like the way people play, avoid them and dont associate. If they're griefing you or intentionally harassing in some way, then maybe it's time to ask for some intervention.... but otherwise?

/endrant

EDIT: Also... just because there's a thread to dump your 'deepest secrets' doesn't mean you need to share stuff that paints you out to be a shitty person... it seems more a place to share embarrassing stories and childish anecdotes from your social adventures

Also I know some won't agree with my opinion here. To each their own. There are plenty of purists out there, and they know what the deal is with the general population. That's their choice

Again, everyone has a varying degree of comfort, they pick their line. It's very clearly not the same. It's been 'debated' countless times here. My point is simply that you can define your own ruleset and let others be so long as its not directly impacting you. There's certainly levels to it all... and the deeper you go the more egregious it gets and is surely more worthy of SE's intervention, but I dont like the idea of players going around asserting themselves over one another on this. It's SE's job to do so.

I could be wrong but I think it's not even debatable whether nyzul exploit qualified as directly impacting others or not.

I'm usually not a fan of ratting each other out but I also firmly believe that looking the other way and tolerating too much in terms of 3dparty tools did a good part of what got this game where it's now.

I disagree, it's 100% on the complacency of SE and their lack of staff, rather than the communities tolerance. They solely rely on reports now and don't actively monitor or police... If they cared more about the product they put out, they'd set the tone themselves.

EDIT:

I'm also unsure what you mean by Nyzul exploit. I simply assumed you meant people Takoing around in Nyzul for more Tokens per run? I see no reason why that'd affect other players. It'd simply let that group progress a mythic faster with some obvious inherent risks to their accounts. But all in all, harmless to other players

Maybe your referring to something else I'm unaware of

I also don't want to derail from the spirit of the thread... I kinda just took to that comment of his and wanted to share my feelings on it, but it may have been inappropriate for me to do so.

Bit incorrect. There was someone in there, Ruijana. Wanted a fair amount of help at the time from some of us. I helped out, they became more demanding of my time. I said no, then suddenly there were the accusations you mention.



You had one person suggest this to yourself and Misart, your co-lead. I never ran an LS on Hades/Cerb, or had intention to, ever. But I had a minor influence with some of your group. What caused that message you mention was because previously, I'd been defending a chap in the LS called Boongalily. Not sure if you'll remember this, but he was accused of being behind a hack just prior to this on Ruijana's account, and was then ostracised from the group.



You were misled back then by someone who had previously been caught lying and trashing the reputation of someone, knowing it was false who then didn't correct the record. You've then perpetuated that myth for 15 years.

With regards to the recent group, and the confession in keeping with the topic at hand, the LS had been built on a foundation of helping newer people through content. A bad egg was brought in by someone else, who didn't fit that way of collective thinking. The kind who would only show up to something if they could personally benefit. They'd then be shoehorned into Odyssey things etc when they first came out by one of those reported, ahead of others who put in the efforts to turn up and aid others. It was undoing everything that had been built up, causing others to quit just because this one person was beginning to ruin their experience. If it had been a passive split, and they'd just gone off to their own static, wouldn't have been an issue. It was only when one of them started trying to interfere in the new group I did this.

That's my confession at least. I don't regret it.

This was a much more entertaining story. Thanks for sharing

The world is crazy bragging about telling. Maybe I'm just old but when I was a kid every grownup said dnt tattle tale

Hounds/Ephexis, stop acting like you're the hero of this story. You are the reason that linkshell didn't work and subsequentally the reason why your second linkshell bbroke up and then had to leave the server, you are one of the worst people and players I have ever interacted with.

The reason the linkshell broke is because you are an incredibly toxic person and ruined every event with your hatred/toxic behaviour.

You were obsessed with farming dynamis and you were the only person fixated on this, during these runs that you forced* on members. During these runs you made them obsoletely miserable, constantly screaming at any player for any reason you could think of (I remember one time when you were hysterically screaming for 15 minutes because someone weaponskilled a mob before you hit it and you ended up yelling at the wrong person!...and you never apologised.

*I stated 'forced' here as if you were online during dynamis times, he would instantly kick you. (I was kicked for AFK bazaaring in PJ during dynamis even after I notified the leaders I wouldn't be on.

This part did make me chuckle, the majority of players didn't go with you- a few look pearls from both linkshells but primarily played with us and always complained about how toxic the culture was in your linkshell.

There were multiple occasions when I joined a discord call with you and some of the members who joined your linkshell, there was nothing but hatred towards other members and blatant sexism and anger towards women/LGBT being able to advance in society (especially when a lady was promoted instead of you). I actually left the linkshell beofe the break as the sexism/homophobia within Hounds/his gang continued. As this happened primarilly on voice and most of you are not stupid enough to document your sexism/homophobia, but I have found one screenshot of one of the people who you decided would be a leader in your newly formed linkshell despite being aware of the below screenshot.



If this is the behaviour of a person that you choose to keep around AND promote to a leadership position, it says a lot about you.

As to the person you claimed is the catalyst of the break, she was not disruptive in any way, you just took a diislike to her for whatever reason you made up in your head. She never left because "they could no longer get what they needed", they were forced to quit as her home country was directly involved with a major global conflict (nice try on trying to spin this though but you should check facts before spewing nonsense).

Hounds, I really hoped that you got over this situation and started being more responsible for yourself and your actions. You need to seek help and find someone to help deal with all the hate that you still hold and stop surrounding yourself with people filled with the same hatred or these situations will continually arise for you and your hatred for everything will just keep growing.

Asaltih<3 let em know what dnt come out in the ronse come out in the wash. For what it's worth hounds is doomed to shout seg runs he can't fill for eternity. On a brighter note bring yo *** back to 11. Hope your well.

Can everyone pls raise hands real quick if you collect material in form of screen shots (audio and video files also count) just to always have ammo at hand in case your arch enemy pops up on a different platform so you can ruin their reputation.

Hey bud! I can't come back! I played the game waaaay too much! I'm still playing some games tho, send me a messsage on disco and we can play something else


1. People that are bringing up a story that happened years ago and twisting it to make themselves look good deserve to lose their reputation.
2. Every image sent on Discord is saved, someone sent me this image back in '21 and it was easy to find just using the search feature.

That screenshot isn't even Ephexis, though. You're trying to say he should be hated because he associates with someone that has viewpoints you don't agree with. I have no strong stance on Ephexis, having never meaningfully communicated with him. But, that just seems like whining to me.

I don't even think the screenshotted post is inherently hateful, if he believes those statistics to be true. I'd call it something between misinformed and crude. If he had citations then it'd just be inconvenient, though I question how many of those came from credible sources.

Like I said, I don't have evidence of him saying anything as it was done over voice chat, but promoting someone within your linkshell that publicly has those view points is pretty indicative.


I would argue that it is hateful, these 'statistiics' are horrifically wrong and intentionally misleading but disregarding the 'statistics' saying "being gay is a mental illness" is definitely hateful

Myself and everyone who has interacted with him is jealous of you!

I edited/rephrased, since I realized it would likely be misconstrued as is. Mental illness is a classification, and a reasonable argument can be made to back up that classification using those statistics. Most autistic people aren't offended about the idea that autism is a mental illness; there's a degree of identity politics biasing the treatment of the behavior.

Obviously, if the statistics are not substantiated, it's not a compelling argument. But, if he as a person believes the statistics, it's not a stretch. He didn't advocate any negative treatment of those groups. But, I don't know this guy either, and I don't know what redeeming qualities he may or may not have. I'm just not ready to condemn someone for associating with him based on one viewpoint he holds.

Autism is a not a mental illness. What the *** internet tinfoil hat ***gives you that idea? You can cure illnesses, you cannot cure ASD.

That just seems to be splitting hairs on terminology. DSM-5 calls it a mental disorder.

If you really want to get into it, I'd probably argue that autism is a cluster of a half dozen or more different behavioral and mental anomalies. Some of them can certainly be cured or improved through CBT, others can't.

There is a huge difference between disorder and illness. This isn't semantics. Most modern literature uses "neurodevelopmental condition" also FYI.

Want to cite sources like you've said makes arguments valid above?

You can use CBT to treat depression and anxiety, which are results of living with ASD. You can't treat social behaviours, communication, or emotional reciprocity, this is as bad as the claims above.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC2759867/#:~:text=A%20key%20finding%20was%20that,was%20in%20social%20communication%20skills.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1750946723001216

I can already predict that you're going to say the sample size is too small(it is). But, I'm not going to go further into it, because it's wildly off-topic and I'm obviously not changing your mind. If you want to declare yourself right, be my guest.

I'm getting a hunch CBT doesn't stand for what I think it stands for.

>>Parent reporting
>>School children

Yeah I'm not going to waste time on this. I do know better.

Don't you have a fetish for being urinated on by women? That's what people from Leviathan say. If so, that is Fetishist Disorder and apparently disorders are mental illnesses according to you so are you mentally ill?