So...I was reminded of something thanks to RT yesterday. Well, I should thank the person who inspires this memory on a monthly basis on here.
Anyway, during the tail end of and after college I had a BF who went into property management. He had ten to fifteen subdivisions under his supervision. In 2009, there was a lawsuit filed against his company because of the accidental drowning of a little girl at a communal pool, so he was required to investigate via the police report, witnesses, and camera footage then report back to their cooperate lawyer. He brought all this home with him.
He also offered to let me watch the footage.
I knew very well that I should NOT watch it with him. That little twinge of morbid curiosity though. That can definitely reek havoc against your better judgement! Basically, I voluntarily watched a four-year-old drown very very very slowly. How *** is that even if it was CCTV footage?!?
This happened over a Memorial Day Weekend and the family rented out the communal area to host a bash. We did a head count of each person on the tape. Ratio of adults to children 2:1. There were kids dashing back and forth through the water from the shallow to the deep end, and in the midst of it one little girl doggy paddling inches and inches further. As time elapsed you could clearly see none of the other kids nor the adults even noticed her desperately treading water. (Seeing that will conjure that feeling of your heart sinking straight into the pit of your stomach followed by an immediate cry for help no matter what the circumstances.) Then, poof! Gone! A little more time elapsed, and when the residual wake from the kids' races receded all you saw was a dark shadow at the bottom of the pool. There her body stayed for twelve more minutes before an adult finally noticed her corpse.
I don't even think the description that I'm giving you and whatever feelings it elicits in any of you for reading this can ever match the varying levels of frustration, disgust, and sadness that happened within those twenty or so minutes. So, there's my analogy. Enjoy!