Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

I have bad social anxiety, and just ... anxiety in general :| it sucks.

Everyone talking about how shy they are...that's not very shy.

It's only when you meet me in real life that the shyness shows up, I'm very open online.


I'll say what I want and do what I want online fine~

Hope not Sagi things.

I can even do Skype. I only start having problems when people can actually see me.

actually I guess I'm kinda the same way too lol, Any voice chat is fine.



Now I will say that when I met my LS leader irl when she came to florida... I was not really shy ... but there again it's like I knew her really well since I had been with that LS for a year or more~

I always end up being afraid to talk to someone one on one because I can't for the life of me keep a coversation going. Start thinking should I talk about this or that or should I bring that up Ultimatly I end up not talking to them at all because I don't want to waste their time with the whole "Hey" "Hey" "How are you?" "Good, you?" "I'm good" and then that be it. If someone starts talking to me I don't feel uncomfortable at all, I guess I just feel obligated to keep a convo going if I start it or something.

If it's a group of people like I have no problems though and as you all know theres not many topics I won't discuss.

I have problems with groups, I get really anxious and ... nervous ... kinda freaks me out too lol.

I'm good with anyone after a few beers. >_>

I can't. I refuse talking on the phone to anyone unless I'm forced and I find skype and the like to be the same thing. My friends that I do NN with want to use voice chat and it gets me very very very agitated just being present without saying anything.

Nothing to say you guys can't be the same person face-to-face that you are on the forums. :D Maybe I'm weird but I honestly think a lot of my facial expressions are based on smileys/emoticons and not the other way around. XD And all my friends always say I'm really expressive, so maybe it's an advantage lol^^


While I was in high school, I was diagnosed with acute social anxiety that lasted through my sophomore year of college. x.x Regular nightmares about social situations, fear of forming relationships, the whole 9 yards. :X

I feel like for each person who has this problem, there exists a specific way of dealing with it. All you have to do is find it. :D For me it meant realizing that I had really *** up my life by being closeted and that I had to just get over it if I wanted to put the pieces back together. So I did. :o Barely even peed myself in the process too !


Edit~
One of the signs of true intimacy is being able to spend time in another person's presence without feeling awkward even if there's silence. So if you've talked to someone for so long that you've run out of things to say, maybe it's not really a big deal after all. :D

I hate voice chat too but for more reasons then just not likeing it...
A) I'm generally not alone in the house and they don't want/need to hear my nerd talk
B) I like to be able to say whatever I want, for the reason above I can't do that with voice chat
C) My brain tends to think faster then I can talk and I end up skipping syllables, or words, or just plain tripping over myself when talking which is embarrassing
D) With games it's nice for everything to be in the log that way you can refrence it if someone tries to say you said one thing and not the other
E) As far as the stratagy argument goes I've always felt everyone should not only know what to do before hand, but already know the plan if things go to hell
F) Pritty sure my voice can be annoying.

Except F; my voice is hawt. :I

I hate my voice lol.

Yeh the problem is I don't get to talk to people long, the awkwardness is always an inital thing that I can never seem to get past XD

Even if it is talking one on one with people here the knowledge that other people are reading it even if not responding keeps me comfortable :P

I would just rather type than go on Vent/TS etc I suffer from that awkward silence part and end up feeling bad for the person who's trying to engage with me.

Oh and people can't understand my Welsh accent I talk fasssssst :P

Hmm, my mic must be broken.. I tried to record something on Vocaroo but it doesn't work. ;-;

I'm weird; I completely lack any accent whatsoever normally. :<
When I get really tired I tend to slip between Irish and Australian, though... :I

I have a southernish accent I've been told lol, not that heavy and barely noticeable but it is there~

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0A766xI1c9l

*hits with newspaper*


I have this too, the way I talk it takes people a while hanging out with me before I am able to stop repeating myself to people.

I like :)

My accent is pretty weak compared to older generations. The most notable thing is my pronuncation of water which comes out as wooder. The wood part is pronounced like a piece of wood. My vowels are a little bit different than most other American accents.

You sound normal! xD To me.. maybe I have a southern accent and I'm used to hearing it! :O

that's my "I just woke up wheres my *** coffee" voice :p

I'm kinda mad my mic broke. I never used it but it was nice to have. I'm sure my ipod has one built in but I'm too lazy to fool with it.

I need a new headset, I'm looking into a cheapish bluetooth one so I can be lazy when I want lol.

I used these. They were cheap but the sound quality was really good and the mic was a bonus. Now all I have are shitty apple ear buds.. and they SUCK

I don't even think I have I mic anywhere or I'd record one for you guys XD

Nvm! Wiki actually had up to date info.