Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

So here's what you do. Just lick him right back. See how he likes it.

Interesting new page.

What if he likes it?

Y'know, when I typed that, I intended it to be good-natured and innocent. I should've known better.

Liela is the only one around here allowed to be good-natured and innocent..

Yes, you should have known better.

I'm innocent

Incoming emo, forgive me, think I just need to get it out of my head to continue about my day.

JUST ONCE, I would like to wake up from not having nightmares, but nice happy dreams. I would also enjoy not immediately, and continuing for quite some period of time thinking I want to kill myself.

T'would be fabulous. I feel a little better already.

Don't think about killing yourself : ( Lack of Kailana would make us sad, you don't want us to be sad do you?

I am curious...did Kalilla look like Rukia in the dream? :p LOL

Not at all, honestly extremely pissed at myself for thinking this way. Just getting so tired of it. -.-

Everytime I do, I think I'd feel much more guilty towards my family and friends. Not like I could be guilty after being dead, but the thought of it remains.

Indeed! xD

Yeah.. Sure you are.

After my brother was killed I had nightmares nearly every single night.. I didn't actually sleep good for two consecutive nights in a row until probably at least a year after his death, and immediately after it, (first 3-4 months?) I was extremely lucky to sleep through the night and even luckier to not have those stupid *** nightmares where I could almost get close enough to save him, but have to watch him die all over again because I just wasn't fast enough.

My dreams were trying to tell me something my conscious mind didn't want to let me realize..

My brother was killed over drugs and I am the sole person responsible (besides him for saying 'yes') for getting him started into drugs.. He had never even seen, smelled or came close to weed or anything else before I smoked his first joint with him. Years and years later he took up selling crack, and it was over crack that he was shot and killed. I could go on and on with my feelings and his death, but suffice it to say I felt guilty but I wasn't really realizing I was feeling guilty, I just somehow lumped it all up in the grief. Once I actually figured it out and separated those feelings, the nightmares pretty much stopped and I started sleeping a lot better.

Maybe you have something similar going on? Maybe there's some truth your mind is trying to get you to acknowledge before it will leave you be?

I rarely have nightmares. So far I remember having only one. What I do have is hours long dreams.

Someone sent me a link to a bit of an article about concussions, thinking maybe this is the issue?


Guess I got more to talk to my doctor about.

I don't have them very often anymore, either.. Growing up I had so few (albeit extremely intense ones) that I remember them all, from time to time, and for no particular reason, I'll remember them...

I mostly just have very weird (but vivid) and abstract dreams.. Most of them I can't begin to describe them to anyone else, even though I can remember them.. I'm not sure how it works, but somehow in my dreams the laws of physics and logic just break down completely and I'm left with something that can only be experienced, never explained or retold.

The world of dreams is a wonderful place :O

I do this.. Except with me it's not just people, it's while I'm looking at my son.. <_<;;;

I had a super weird dream last night that I woke up laughing from around 5 am. I was like "I have to remember that!" ... yep. I can't remember what it was now! lol It was kind of alarming waking up that way though. :x

XD You're terrible, Slip.

D: It sounded innocent to me! Until you mentioned it wasn't. xD

Kailana, you are a great person. Never think less of yourself. Get help if you need to and don't be ashamed of that, but never think less of yourself.

Agreed. :x

Hey some of the ***he does.. If you were around him you'd think the same thing!

I had a dream last night about a black bear wearing black clothing eating black macaroons at midnight.

Means you have homosexual tendencies for Hairy African Americans.

My dream world either makes no sense, tricks me into thinking I'm awake and going about my day as normal, or makes me sad :/

wat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtY7Szd7WO4

my dream last night, involved being on a spaceship, and some girl smuggled in a pet in from the space station we where docket in... then chaos insured in the space station as an Alien (like the movie Alien) starts ripping out of people's chests and it gets destroyed. we escape in our ship, leaving a couple people behind who had face huggers in their face.

as we leave, the pet that got smuggled aboard, a lil alien pops from it and we crash land.
/dream end

I call dibs on the screenplay!