Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

Who hasn't and doesn't want one? Well cept Austar.. Cuz they're a youngster.. I'm pretty sure if you asked, and actually got people to stop hiding their dirty little secrets (those are usually the ones that will keep people from saying yes, because they don't want you to find out) most people over the age of 25 would say they want to go back and do ***differently.

I damn sure do.. I wish I never started smoking, which is just the tip of the iceberg... I absolutely abhor the fact that I smoke.. But it's not easy to kick.. I can feel my breaths getting shorter, I can feel that if I keep this up, I'm going to run into some major medical problems in the next 20 years.. and I have stopped smoking for long periods and liked how I felt during those times.. But I go absolutely crazy without them.. Just picture the stereotypical drug addict, and that's me. The few loved ones I have left are the ones who take the brunt of it, which is actually worse to me..

Inorite c_c sport has taken up my life until now but I wanna go and learn web design so I can make some real big bucks with my ideas I have.

Well that's true, but I was speaking more on the line of feeling as if you've really screwed up already, and you want to go back and change those mistakes, even if changing them could lead to something worse.

I dunno about you, but when I was younger, I didn't really equate cause and effect. I was stupid "I'm just a kid, why should I care" type of attitude.. I did what I wanted when I wanted all the while really lacking the ability to understand actions do have consequences.. Sure I knew that if I played with fire I got burned (it's actually one of the reason I'm so insensitive to fire.. I've pretty much burned every part of my body multiple times.. I even branded myself (2 inch by 1 inch, not exactly small) with a red hot coat hanger heated by a propane torch because I thought it was a good idea at the time...) but there are some life choices that you have to live with your entire life, there are some you just can't escape from, you can change, but you will never out run them..

I started smoking before I left elementary, I also made a lot of other choices when I was really young, that I wouldn't of actually thought about the way I think about them now, at a young age. I don't mean all kids are stupid or that they're all incapable of seeing the world as cause and effect and making the right choices, but I was.. It took me being as old as I am now to realize those screw ups.

Yeh that's the reason I won't be doing a full degree, just a 2 year college course to teach me enough to build my own website and enter into a position in the industry with an option of entering into 3rd year at uni. I have a couple of ideas for websites that developed from my experiences in the sporting world that I believe have the potential to make me a millionaire ^_^.

Also, Starbucks Double Shot Espressos.. ***, I'm still up.. I just don't feel like sleeping and I drank that thing over 12 hours ago. But I'm going to go try.

Hospital food


looks like I may be here over the weekened also :(

Think I'ma go ride my bike for couple hours ttyl! /zooooooom.

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does this turn you on?

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no it's not twilight sparkle

sweet finally get a choice of what I can eat, solid food diet finally :o

now just want the gfto of here diet :p


but eh, as long as they take care of me i'm ok with this.


incision is healing up good so far, still have this stupid draining tube in :(

soon i might be your nurse! <3

:o


as long as you promise not to kill me lol.

Saggi forgot this picture.



And good morning!

Did they not do this laproscopic?

They were initially going to do it that way but it was worse then I thought so they ended up having to cut me open and take it out, had a lot more gall stones, I have a small jar of them sitting right next to me right now lol, they're gross :|

That sucks bro. My wife had hers removed laproscopic and I took her home that day. She was back in the kitchen cooking 2 days after. You have horrible luck :(

I've never known him NOT to be sick somehow. :P

lol yea it's looking like i'll be here this weekenend also :(


but at least it's healing good right now.



hehe.

Hospital internets y u suck so bad :o

i'll just loosen a wheel

Sev keeps the hospitals alive by first helaing you then doing something else to sneakily injure you so you have to keep coming back!

Life is too short for backreading. Are we talking about regrets? I regret majoring in English.

Good morning guys ^^ and YAY for September! I love September. And I love October. Chilly weather, colorful everywhere, pumpkin carving, warm comfort food, snuggly sweaters! Frontier chili in bread bowls, here I come! WOOOHOO!