Random Thoughts.....What Are You Thinking?

What is insanity? I find the behaviors deemed by society to be sane, actually insane. We don't act like 'ourselves' we act like the ghost of a human being that society finds acceptable, that is insane.

Personality traits =/= Symptoms >:

In that analogy, my mind is like a sailing ship. I like to ride the waves of people's minds.

Then we've gone down two different paths.. <.< I'm not speaking of clinical insanity.

Different paths, same destination.

I wish I could ride the waves of even mine.. I get thrown about and jarred and shaken.. I can't sleep unless I have something to focus on.. for the last couple of years Star Trek: Voyager has been my real sleeping aid... I can take enough tranquilizers or anti-histamines to knock out a horse, but without something to focus my mind on, I won't sleep. I'll just be left in a drug induced stupor. I know that show so well that I don't even need to see it to know what's going on, which is why I use it.. I can just listen to what's being said, and see it in my mind. Without something to focus on, I can't sleep. If I'm left with only my mind, I can't sleep.. But I'm also nosy and one of those 'have to see what's going on' types, so it has to be something I know intimately, or I'll just keep looking up to see what's going on.

Not really, there's a difference, you can be insane by society norms, or you can be insane clinically, they're not always the same.. Granted being clinically insane usually means you are also societally (is that a word?) insane, but the reverse is not true. Being societally insane doesn't mean you are usually clinically insane, as mental illness takes greater precedence then just being socially awkward, if that makes sense.

Rides aren't always pleasant, but they're almost always fun. I like to analyze and think about people that I know. I guess it's because other than when I talk to other people, I don't like to focus on myself. When I do, I have trouble sleeping.

Well move here, you can analyze me all you want, but be warned, you're going to need something more than a pleasure yacht :p

Let me just experience the fleet in real life, then I'll hit you up in one of these!

I pity you :D You're going to end up getting to carry grease.. If you have no idea what I mean, look it up.. Carriers use literally tons of it, and it all has to be carried in barrels up the stairs.

omg maybe gary busey and tommy lee jones will take over the ship and stephan segal will have to come rescure you!

*noms jack in the box*

In the navy...

All the talks about normality and such are good and I used to do them too. But sometimes being different doesn't make you feel special at all, but just left out.

I'm sure I'll have to do a lot of shitty jobs during my tenure, but hey, whatever it takes to have a good ship! Plus once I get through nuke school...

ugh this sounds so good right now. evil temptations. D:

Try wearing yourself out Slip. Trust me it works, I've been through patches where I had the same problem, too much on my mind and not being able to turn off. However, if you wear yourself out enough you will sleep, active mind or not. Nothing can stop human biology.

-Yawn.- Too late. =/

lies! it's not too late for at least another 2 hours.

most everyone here loves you. get over the left out feeling and appreciate the people who care about you.

Well I won't go into details and pull out my rl drama-cards, but anyway

I'm pretty doubtful about that xD

I wasn't talking about the site anyway, just in general.

The stalkers care. =( (jking...)

/hugs Seha

first off, *** everyone who doesn't like you. what's the point of being concerned with those people?

i know you weren't talking about the site. that's why i said appreciate the love you DO get. you gonna sit in the desert and not drink water cause ice sounds better? i know fun here doesn't fill the need that real life does, but you shouldn't feel like an outcast. there is more of us than there are of people who dislike you irl. so they are the outcast for messing with our buddy.

ice sucks

Done that plenty of times.. I have severe insomnia. Not to discredit what you say like it won't work in most cases, but I've had severe insomnia since before I went through puberty, I've spent years upon years figuring out what works for me.. I'm one of those randoms that throw a wrench in the works so to speak.. The only thing that makes me sleep is a combination of drug/alcohol (including sleeping pills but not limited to) induced sleeps and giving my mind something else to focus on.. If my mind runs free, then I stay awake, but if it focuses on something I know well (it used to be music, but I can't use that one anymore) then I'm able to sleep.

Human biology wouldn't make it cyclical event where I stay up 36-48 hours at a time, and only end up sleeping 3-4 hours in between.. My sleeping patterns, un-aided, don't fall within the norm. It's not a sometime thing, or an average thing for me, it's an every single day thing for me.