On A Pale Chocobo

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Day 100 - Evening:

It was in the shower that it happened.

A flash of red, a flash of anger.

A flash of darkness, and I crumbled to the floor.

I came to a few moments later. Thankfully, I was alone. I quickly scraped myself up decided to get out of there before someone saw me. I could have sworn as I passed a mirror that there was something wrong in the reflection.

I was worried.

I started to walk through the hallways, nothing but a towel on, and back to my quarters.

I passed by an Elvaan on the way. It was a perfectly standard procedure. He was headed to get cleaned up, to shave I think.

I stopped as he passed and turned.

The only thing I wanted to do was push him against a wall and kill him.

I knew what was going on.

We're losing.

Was that my thought, or did it belong to the first demon?

I hurried back to my room, glad that I didn't see anyone else on the way. I got some clothes on.

I was scared.

I was very scared, and I still am.

I've been playing with fire; I don't want to burn someone else.

Cai walked into the room at some point, and the hardest decision ever was not telling him, because I was that scared.

We're going to lose. I cannot keep him back.

It looked as though I had finally bit off more than I could chew.

I managed to slowly suppress the urge to kill Cai from the moment I saw him. It was so difficult...

And when I saw Wolfgang? Forget it, that was almost too hard.

How do we stop this?

I kept asking inward, but he didn't know either.

We were both scared.

"Is something wrong?" Cai asked over dinner. I quickly shook my head, keen not to look at him.

"Tired," I mumbled, and went back to my popotos.

Kill him...

I was gripping my knife and I had been glancing at him without realizing it. I got out of there, quickly.

I rushed back to the room, glad that no one was there. I grabbed a rucksack and quickly tossed a few sets of clothing in there. I packed some rations, grabbed some pens and a few other diaries, and tossed them in. I basically took my necessities.

Every time I saw someone, I had the urge to bite into them and massacre them in every single way. I barely fought it. The only thing I could think to do was to get out, and get out now. I had become a danger to the people I wanted to save.

I searched around until I found the Chocobos, and I went to grab the first one that I saw. By sheer coincidence, there was one of the immortals there that was tasked with dealing with the Empire's birds. When he saw me going to mount a Chocobo he stopped me.

He took me over to one that was sequestered.

It was beautiful. It was a gorgeous white one.

"The Empress wills for you to use this one; she herself had raised it," he said simply.

She was too good to me, and now I was about to abandon all the people that she had given me, and everything she gave me.

"My thanks," I said. I placed my hand near the bird. As though it knew that I was its masters lover, it came right to me and let me rub its beak.

I left Delkfutt a few minutes later, riding out on the bird.

I'm not sure where I'm going to go, but I have a few plans.

Wolfgang is too slow to act, and so I shall force his hand to decision.

Tonight, Jeuno shall burn to the ground by my hand, and I'm not going to leave until there's nothing left. We're tethered where we are because there is a Jeuno. People come because there is a Jeuno.

The only way that which I can stop this and make them go to a safer land is to finally end the reign of Jeuno. Sometimes, you need to simply start over. If I cut off the emotional tie to this land, they will be forced to adapt and remember the reality of the situation.

Delkfutt has been a haven, and it still shall; but it is not for them to stay, now.

Instead, it is time for them to go to Altepa. The Turned do not excel there. I cannot see a Demon doing well in such heat; they are creatures of the icelands.

Is that where I am to go? To Altepa? To the icelands?

I'm not sure. As I stand here, my bird next to me, with the residential area to Jeuno in front of me, I cannot help but wonder if I am about to commit the right act.

It's time to close this book.

Where shall I be next? I'm not entirely sure. All I know is that I'm going to burn Jeuno to the ground, and then I shall ride out.

If no one else will, I'll finish this all alone, or I'll secure Altepa alone, or sit in the blazes I'm about to start and kill myself alone.

But if I do not kill myself, all I know is that I'm going to ride out on a pale Chocobo, and I have no intention on turning back until it's safe to be near me again.

And this time, I ride alone.

Badass ^^

The following note was found attached to a Hellfire that is presumed to have been Sectumsempra’s. It was placed in the center of where Jeuno was before it had been burned down.

To Those Who Stood By Me

Don’t look for me.

I’m a danger now. I’m a liability, and I’m not in control.

If you see me, kill me, because by the time you find me, it will probably be too late.

But for now, beyond anything else, forgive me.

If you want to hunt me, look for the trails of dead bodies.

I’m trying to save you all, but I think I need saving, this time.

But don’t look for me. Really.

Jesus. Christ.

That was a long chapter.

The PDF has been updated according with all three chapters fully formatted.

i feel like im getting to read the book thats gonna make someone a famous writer while they write it, before they know the ramifications of their work, kinda like that "being part of history in action" feeling =D

Such emotion! I can't get enough of it!

Not sure at what point I'm going to start Chapter 4. I need to reevaluate what direction I'm taking this.

Also, I may or may not have fallen behind on school work while writing this.

Intriguing direction you took "yourself," Sectum. It invokes both a sense of pride and pity, with a strong addition of mystery if you connect yourself with the story.

Very well written. Looking forward to the eventual start of chapter 4.

So I'm looking at the plot plan for part 4.

I kind of just made Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and Zombies.

/facepalm

Back to the drawing board!

lolwhut?

You'll come up with something lol

All three parts so far have been nothing short of amazing, Sect. I kinda agree with Irohuro, if you keep writing, you'll end up doing really well for yourself. Cheers, and looking forward to part 4 :D

Thank you for the feedback, guys!

I was starting part 4 this morning, then I decided to can it. After I made the topic >_> So just ignore the current topic while I rewrite the story. AGAIN.

FINALLY caught up. Sorry bout that. Keep up the good work, Sect.

You'll get it right. It's one of the pains of writing, trying to make it sound JUST RIGHT. I can't tell you how many time's I've written down an entire story-arc only to delete it all and start over.

Oh, trust me, you've seen The Binder.

I know LOL

True, that binder is pretty epic...


and by epic I mean nightmarish x.x;

Dem notes

Jesus o_o

That thing is scary :(

Looking forward to Part 4, Sect, keep up the great work!

Sect This is an amazing story. I think you have a bright future.

Indeed he does.

I kinda started writing a story, Wondering if I could send it to you sect for some CC on it? I'm about finished but not quite.

pffft thats it? should see my math notes x.x; thing is heavy!

so awesome :) i love all your stories Sect! i can't wait for chapter 4!!! x3 squeeee!!

I read this whole thread today and it is absolutely AMAZING! I see big things with your writing future if you keep this up. Can't wait to read chapter 4! You've gotten yourself another Avid reader! Just make sure when you're famous you use the name Sectum so we all know it's you =P

I'm surprised at this. I don't ever really feel like reading and I read the whole story. Can't wait to see if there's more.

Thanks! There's a fourth chapter finished a few topics below, "Tears of Scarlet, Tears of Gold".

The fifth is starting some time this week.

What is this I dont even......

this is a great fan fiction, read it cause its actually good o.o